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I Miss You-Blink 182

(I miss you, miss you)
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
[x3]

(I miss you, I miss you) [x4]

Sunday, October 25, 2009

i dunno why, always at this period of time in my life, i'd pick up Johnny Angel and read it.
the ultimate message and reminder you gave to me.
many many feelings. many many feelings.
of you.
how do i talk about it ?
how do i talk to you ?
so much meaning inside that book. the book you bought but never read, the book i recieved and always read.
and i read about you
especially when i miss you.
especially when i love you
this thing i am talking about now, meaningful to me, ugly to you.
and it hurts because its ugly to you
you,
without me.
i dunno what to say.
and there are things i cant say
one day, when you come to this blog, and you see all these posts.
see all my thoughts
or you may never think about me again.
nor talk about me again
coz we never know when will we next see each other,
until its all too late
like that day, when i met you.
when i so wanted to see you
is it the last time ?
i dont want it to be so
i think so, dear friend.
friend
i think so, angel.
Angel.

ForMeThere'sOnlyYou
7:18 PM

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

yesterday. today. now.

bye bye friend.

sorry we cant be together.

saw your blog. glad you're happy. jiayou yea.

and takkiare of youself.

yesterday it rubbed the wound raw.

today, i peeled it open, and cut the vein that connected the heart. disconnected myself from it.

and it hurts, and it bleeds.

but its better for you and i.

you, the unnamed protagonist of my blog, today's your last chapter in this book. the author will always always love you, i'll remember all the happy memories.

there are many ways to kill a man. and but its those that leave no wound, that deal the most damage.

and today, i die again.

-always yours,
xinyi

ForMeThere'sOnlyYou
7:51 PM

Sunday, September 27, 2009

heyy,

i told you two years ago,

not a day has gone by without me thinking of you.

and you know what ?

not a day has gone by without me thinking of you.

and its crazy.

the way i cant help but love you,

even though i cant see you.

and its crazy.

there are nights when i lie awake,

thinking about you.

and there are times,

i wanna scream to you,

i love you,

alot alot alot.

and its crazy,

coz i cant.

or risk losing you.

i am not the kind to bottle things up,

but yet for you,

i push it all inside.

but its okay,

really.

coz i know i am lucky,

to still have you in my life.

you know, i still have the old phone. and inside there are so, so many memories. some of the happiest times of my life, some of the worst. but most of them, you. and its crazy, reading all of them, and realising that none of these will ever repeat themselves, coz you are now you, and i am still me. and its crazy, the difference.

but people change, relationships change. and like you said, some things, once lost, can never be regained again.

im living in the past, with my body in the present. coz im afraid to let go, im afraid to lose the only source of identity i have left.

coz you are you, and i am me.

and not a day has gone by without me thinking of you.

and i still love you.

ForMeThere'sOnlyYou
9:02 PM

Thursday, August 13, 2009

she never had to fear losing him,
coz she knew he'll never leave her.
she never had to fear making him angry,
coz she knew he'll be laughing 5 mins later.
she never had to fear crying alone,
coz she knew he'll be there for her forever.
she never had to fear being unwanted,
coz she knew he'll always be wanting her.

i typed this really really long ago. was looking through my past posts.

hmm. there's alot to think about. i want you to be happy, be happy with me.

and i have to change. i have to be a better person.

you probably wouldnt see this, you.

blurted out alot of stuff without thinking. its like whatever my heart was screaming i just let it out. and now my mind is back in control.

i am motivated by people. i have to be more independent. more like you.

ForMeThere'sOnlyYou
2:01 AM

Saturday, August 08, 2009

and you

you deserve to be happy too.

even if it kills me.

and its killing me. the truth burns, the reality bends me up in knots. but.

if you're leading the life you want, being with the people you love,

why not? =)

takkaire of yourself yea, you.

be with the people that gives you happiness, that can make you smile like that, that can give you the best day ever.
every single day.

and if you do, im happy for you.

and i was sitting there, looking out of the window. every time a bus comes i hoped you would appear. she told me not to be silly, but as i looked out, i hoped to see you there. its like something you know deep down that would not happen, yet you cant help but hope.
be positive, xinyi.
be happy xinyi.
be happier, mei.

ForMeThere'sOnlyYou
11:32 AM

aye. been thinking about you the whole night. and when i woke up it was you that came first.

this is the guy that breathes because you exist.

aye you. you deserve to have so, so much more. but when you have him, i want you to be happy, i want you to be contented, coz more than that, you deserve to be happy.

its crazy, isnt it?

it hurts me to see you limit yourself like that, yet it would hurt you even more if i insisted that you take more.

to give less than what you should be getting, to see you reject anything more, i dunno, its your choice.

and i would support you no matter what you choose, what you do.

because you deserve to be happy, if i cant make you happy, the least i can do is to help you in your search for it.

i dont want to lose you, dear friend.

its crazy.

in my 18th year, i loved as i have never loved before.
so there!

ForMeThere'sOnlyYou
11:16 AM

Friday, August 07, 2009

and you,

i do not know what you're looking for. maybe you're not looking this way anymore. i do not know. aye.

ForMeThere'sOnlyYou
11:10 PM

its crazy.

today went to sch for national day celebration. was super bored. sat in front then dunno why must they have merlion on stage and spray water. zzz. couldnt wait to go off.

went to je lib. heh. did some maths, then went to eat lunch. ate chicken rice. then went back to study, did econs essay outline and finished up my regression and correlation tutorial, "attempted" to do some of the pure maths questions. sian la i dunno how to do. hmm. time really flies. hour after hour passed. left at 8:30. went to jp to eat dinner. ate mac, went ntuc to buy wax.

with you

for the first time in a long long time, i felt my heart beat again. its crazy. so familiar yet..so strange. i looked at you. and i couldnt believe my eyes.

you dont know yourself, you dont know yourself as i see you.

aye. its like the poorest man suddenly living in infinite riches. its so much i cant comprehend how happy i should be.

and when you had to go, i couldnt bear it. the heart beating in me torn out again.aye. i told you i die everytime you leave. it isnt the pain, it isnt the ache, its just the fall from everything into nothingness. the dulling of the eyes, the slowing of movements.

if only you knew, how much you mean.

ForMeThere'sOnlyYou
10:44 PM

Thursday, August 06, 2009

hello!

aye. tired.

do you want me to? i guess not.

you forgot, that i am human too.

you forgot, i need you too.

you forgot; forget it.

please let me stay

ForMeThere'sOnlyYou
8:05 PM